Odds n Ends

Hmm, so I am not sure how long it has been since I wrote on this thing but my life has been busy and chaotic lately.



I have been to the doctor a couple times for various things. Wel back in Jan/Feb I was taking a left turn with my left arm and it popped. I was put in a sling for five days and they thought it would be fine and heal. Now it is October and it is still hurting. Come to find out after an MRI that I have a tissue damage, my shoulder moves too much, and possible rotator cuff injury that I need surgery. I have it the day before Thanksgiving so that it will give me enough time to heal and be ready for the spring semester. I will be in a sling for 6 weeks and possibly up to 9 weeks. I will have physical therapy afterward.



School has also been really busy. Since I am having surgery, I have to finish the semester out early so what I am supposed to be doing in 7 weeks is now being combined down into four weeks. It is stressful but feels good to be getting shit done.



Things with Nate an I are going good. 8 months as of yesterday and time flies by. I have been stressed and cranky lately and he has been really patient and caring with me. I hate it that women have this 28 day cycle and that we get hormonal from it. Just when we become "normal" from bleeding for seven days, we go through all the darn hormonal emotions again a week before the bleeding. I would really like to see a guy go through it sometime and see what they think of it. The last couple days I have been going through the prementrual emotions and I can not even describe them. Nate will ask me what is wrong and the only thing I can say is, I feel like I could cry and emotional but I honestly can not even figure out the emotions myself. How do I expect him to understand. Oh well, life moves on, he is great about it, and that is all I can ask for.



Went to Nashville the last weekend in September for the Viking game and the first weekend in October for the Auburn game. It was about a 5 hour drive from here but I loved it. When Nate and I went to the Viking game we went down town for a night and it was crazy. It was busier than MSP/ST. Paul. Went to Coyote Ugly and a couple other bars. I really like that town. Nate showed me around a little bit since he used to be stationed nearby when in the Army.



Well today is my productive day to get shit done. Write a paper, two care plans, another journal, and hopefully some reading. We will see how far I get.

Frusterated

So I am away from home, all the muscles in my body hurts, my back and neck hurts, I miss my family, I have a test tomorrow, and Nate and I seem to be butting heads. It is so frusterating between Nate and I because we can't even pin point why we are butting heads. Maybe because I am not feeling good I have no sense of humor or maybe he has something on his mind bothering him... I don't know but I wish we could get on the same page. We don't argue... but there is an unspoken tension between us and even when we try to talk about it we still do not know why. I am just keeping myself in my room and trying to give us space. I don't know what to do. I am not used to an unspoken tension. I am have only ever dealt with verbalized tension so this is really new to me when it comes to a significant other. It is kind of a lonely feeling. Maybe because I have not been feeling good and just want to be nurtured is playing a role in this whole thing. Sometimes I miss those overwhelming feelings one gets in the beginning of a relationship between two people. Does this mean we are over the honeymoon phase? Good lord I hope not. It seems way to soon for that. I miss my family so much right now and it just makes everything that much worse. I don't go home and see family til December, which is the longest I have went without seeing family and friends.

Mono

I have mono! BLAH! This sucks...but explains a few things

HW

So I just got assigned 43 chapters to read and a paper to write...does that explain why I have not blogged lately!